Cantata no. 6 (Assistants of Assistants) in Varying Keys, Op. 25 for Three Electric Guitars, One Bass Guitar, One Drum Kit, One Tenor and Additional Voices Where Appropriate

by Shorthand Phonetics

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"Cantata no. 6 (Assistants of Assistants) in Varying Keys, Op. 25 for Three Electric Guitars, One Bass Guitar, One Drum Kit, One Tenor and Additional Voices Where Appropriate" is the sixth full-length concept album by lo-fi indie band Shorthand Phonetics.

This album narrates Hanabishi Hideaki's trials and tribulations within the year in his life in medicine after the American sabbatical he took graduating.

These 52 minutes of music roughly covers the 52 weeks within that year of his return to medicine.

credits

released August 30, 2011

Copyleft 2011 Yes No Wave Music and Tsefula/Tsefuelha Records
Shorthand Phonetics is Ababil Ashari (vox, guitar, bass, programming)
All tracks by A. Ashari except track 1 by A. Ashari / T. Teravainen / V.L. Hidajat / J. Steele / S. Carradinni,
track 3 by A. Ashari / S. Budiharjo, track 4 and 8 by A. Ashari / S. Carradini, track 7 by A. Ashari / V. L. Hidajat
and track 9 and pt.2 of track 11 by A. Ashari / J. Steele
Cover art and booklet art were cropped and modified from a photograph entitled “11-08-09” by Dov Harrington
www.flickr.com/photos/idovermani/
Back cover art was modified from the photograph entitled "Lab Coats" by Logan Ingalls
www.flickr.com/photos/plutor/
Both photographs are used under the Attribution 2.0 Generic Creative Commons License (CC BY 2.0)
Produced, mixed and mastered by Ababil Ashari
Recorded at Third Floor First Room Studios, Pasteur, Bandung, Jawa Barat, Indonesia to a 2007 Hewlett-Packard Presario V3500
through a Labtec webcam mic in the month of July 2011.
Dedicated to my muse.
www.shorthandphonetics.co.cc,
shorthandphonetics.tumblr.com
www.facebook.com/shorthandphonetics

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Track Name: Overture ("For when the One Great Scorer comes to mark against your name, He writes—not that you won or lost—but how you played the Game." - Grantland Rice)
(instrumental)
Track Name: Are You Having an Aneurysm? Is This What An Aneurysm Looks Like?
[3-4]

its 430, lying in bed
wondering what, you are doing
i hope im proven wrong

i send a text, you dont reply
an all too common phenomenon
i hope yr generally ok

worry i will always be
when you break down, consistently
i hope im right all along

and then i hear, through the grapevine
that you are not truly fine
anxiety, builds up in my mind

thats it im coming over
checking up on you
i hope you dont mind
i hope you dont mind

that i care about you very much
its killing me to see you this way
to find that all my worries were warranted

you say "you feel disturbed"
but yr not exactly telling me to get out
to get out

knock on yr door, you open it
you say yr fine, but i can sense not really
yr not fooling me

i ask what's up, you reply
oh my god, its worse than i thought
im not proven wrong

this is why i came over
checking up on you
i feel it in my gut
i feel it in my gut coz

i know you dont want to hear this, its annoying
but i've been on the other side, and you wont survive if you dont
start reaching out, to anyone you know
like me, like me, like me, like me in front of you right now

[literary bibliography]

3. Leiberman, Mark. "Friendly Friend Friendly." Language Log. 20 July 2011. Web. 27 July 2011. <http://languagelog.ldc.upenn.edu/nll/?p=3286#more-3286>.
4. Marciuliano, Francesco and Craig Macintosh. "Sally Forth." Comic strip. Seattle Times [Seattle] 19 July 2011. Print.
Track Name: Duh, Winning!
[5]

where am i now
stopped paying attention
going, go, gone
my apprehention
empty i feel
but whats so bad about that
whats so bad about that

you should just look around
and realized we have won
the lottery

you should just look around
and realized we have won
already

what are you thinking
whatever it's too much
just come with me
cmon it's just lunch
so what if you feel empty
fullness ain't a prerequisite
to indulge in conversation
whats so bad about that
even if its true

you should just look around
and realized we have won
the lottery

you should just look around
and realized we have won
already

why are you still fussing around?
what are you waiting for?
an epiphany?

well its nt gonna come if you
still think yr worthless
yr not

realize
that we are lucky

realize
life can be its own

reward
look at your four walls

and see
its not that bad of a life

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[literary bibliography]

5. Charlie Sheen: Watch the Full '20/20' Interview. Prod. Roone Arledge. Perf. Charlie Sheen and Andrea Canning. Abcnews.com. 26 Feb. 2011. Web. 09 July 2011. <http://abcnews.go.com/Entertainment/charlie-sheen-interview-special-edition-2020/story?id=13008140>.
Track Name: Dirk Nowitzki vs. The Heat
[6]

“You will be giants in the land.”
Yet we did not believe.
So as we passed our peers in height
our hearts started to freak.

We quickly found that extra height
is a burden not easily borne
We can not fit in human homes
yet see over their heads.

“Cut me off at the knees,” some cry
“And then I’ll be like you!”
Others stop their growing
And from then on, just make do

But what of those who keep on growing?
Where do they call home?
Their footsteps fill the world but I
still don’t know where they’re going.

It’s not easy for men to know
that giant hearts to tick too
And as our man friends dwindle
Our use for height does too

And I am at the trailhead.
I see wanderers ahead
Those who beg on crippled legs
and ignorers behind

but i dont care

I will grow strong and mighty
but mostly go alone
Does being what we’re meant to be
replace the yearn for home?
i dont think so

this is the sacrifice
i have gone through

i can never return to where you are
just come with me

the "cut off yr knees" is just a metaphor
its easily recoverable
easily regenerable

just come with me

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[literary bibliography]

6. Kang, Jay C., and Bill Barnwell. "A Man Alone: Dirk vs. the Heat." Grantland.com. ESPN, 9 June 2011. Web. 9 June 2011. <http://www.grantland.com/story/_/id/6642375/dirk-vs-heat>.
Track Name: Fujioka Fujie Sits Me Down and It Was Totally Ninja (A Conversation Sung Alone)
[7]

she sat me down
in lieu
of plans
of rendevouz with you

expressed concerns
of my interest in loving you

"what is your deal, you crazy man?
is it obsession or true love as we know it?"

"i dont know sister of my love
can you tell me?
what this is?
coz im too far in it to know
anymore, why are you asking?
why are you asking?"

so she told me
that you cried just recently
over me

now i feel bad
but all i can say to her
was how i felt, selfishly

"trust that my intentions are pure as i know
i dont to hurt her in any way or capacity?"

"well i dont know hanabishi-kun
what to do either
i love my sister too more so than you
i would imagine, i would imagine"

"that this is all just something that is not appropriate now
dont push a square peg to a round hole
i know you love her and i believe that you want to help
but i want you to leave her alone
she needs her space, like she always has
she needs to figure this out on her own
do what she will, i will always be with her whatever happens dont you worry
oh my god yr not listening,
i guess what love'll do to you...
hanabishi-kun! hanabishi-kun!"

"oh i blanked out there for a while
im sorry what were you saying just now?"

"just that this love comes with many risks as you know
i know yr really deaf, just get this through your head"

"that i dont know what'll happen
tween the two of you, that is up to you
but know that sometimes
intentions arent enough
i would know"

"thank you, thank you, fujioka-san"

"no that wasnt a exactly blessing you idiot."

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[lterary bibliography]

7. Reed, Adam. "Training Day." Archer. Prod. Matt Thompson. FX. FX, 14 Jan. 2010. Television.
Track Name: Anyone Can Play Guitar 2: The Fan Sequel (Just Wanna Play Portal 2 With You, or, "So There's This French [...] Well French Iranian Cartoon Called "Persepolis" About Growing Up in Iran During the Iranian Revolution or Whatever... It's Fun! You'll Like It!"), or...
[fulltitle: "Anyone Can Play Guitar 2: The Fan Sequel (Just Wanna Play Portal 2 With You, or, "So There's This French [...] Well French Iranian Cartoon Called "Persepolis" About Growing Up in Iran During the Iranian Revolution or Whatever... It's Fun! You'll Like It!"), or, "Any state that passes a bill that tries to regulate video games based on content is just asking to pay my legal fees..." - Paul Smith"]

[8][9][10][11]

Tsubasa, come out and play
Lets play our games all day
forget about the perils in our minds
lets see how much joy we can find
well this ones adverserial
And this one is co-op
oh what's the experience today
you wont know if you dont come out and play

oh What have you got to lose
except time alone to be depressed
come out and feel something else
something more

cmon, just listen to my words
its not really that absurd
you'll feel better if you'd just let go
any notion of total control
lets do whatever you want
your wish is my command
you owe yourself to lighten up
might seem hard, but its really not

oh What have you got to lose
except time alone to be depressed
come out and feel something else
something less crushing, less depressing

we're gonna hang out, have fun, and forget
we're gonna hang out, have fun, fun forget
bout life, release tensions in conversation,
weve done this before, so you know how it goes
i know yr in there, i just heard you fumble about! you just turned off your lights right therre
cmon come out, come ou--oh whats the bloody point?
fuck me its raining...

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[lterary bibliography]

8. Yorke, Thom, Jonny Greenwood, Colin Greenwood, Ed O'Brien, and Phil Selway. Anyone Can Play Guitar. Radiohead. Rec. Autumn 1992. Sean Slade and Paul Q. Kolderie, 1993. MP3.
9. Wolpaw, Erik, Jay Pinkerton, and Chet Faliszek. Portal 2. Producer Gabe Newell. 18 Apr. 2011. Video Game. Valve Corporation, Bellevue, WA.
10. Persepolis. Dir. Vincent Paronnaud and Marjane Satrapi. Perf. Chiara Mastroianni, Catherine Deneuve and Gena Rowlands. 2.4.7. Films, 2007. DVD.
11. Grant, Christopher. "Victory Lap: ESA Responds to Supreme Court Decision." Joystiq.com. AOL Inc., 27 June 2011. Web. 27 June 2011. <http://www.joystiq.com/2011/06/27/victory-lap-esa-responds-to-supreme-court-decision/>.
Track Name: Tragedy in the Tradeoff, or, You Have Been Taken Over by the Goddess of Gossip and It Is Not a Good Look on You, Sister! (Well, That's the Easiest Way to Make You Stop Talking About All the Annoying People You Meet, Brother!)
Oh to talk, how we love to talk
bout anyone and anything we can think of
better if malicious
and feel good at third party's expense
its instant, its satisfying, its wrong
a vicious circle
the world is made for people who arent cursed
with selfawareness[12] like me
and im aware
painfully aware, it is

me and my stupid ideals
its pretty clear they're pretty unique
and not in a good way
a sociable way, or even a way that makes me content

its just discomfort, perpetual discomfort
and an awkward sense that i just dont belong
which makes someone like you
seem bright to me, inappropriately so
if your insecurities are to be believed
the world is not made for people
who doubt themsleves
like we do
and we do
doubt ourselves coz it is

us and our stupid ideals
its pretty clear they're pretty unique
and not in a good way
a sociable way, or even a way that makes uscontent

why do i insist
in loving the unloveable
why do you insist
on feeling unloved
it stems from the same place
a place of kindness
but i'd rather be evil
than feel this tortured
i know you feel the same
youve said so many times before
and just as frequent
you deny yrself pleasure
have i done the same?

the world is made for people who arent cursed
with self-awareness as deeply as

us and our stupid ideals
its pretty clear they're pretty unique
and not in a good way
a sociable way, or even a way that makes us content
to live with our ownselves
like a normal person would
i just thought of something new just now
what if we could just be ourselves
and not give a fuck?

well we'd be content then, wouldnt we?

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[lterary bibliography]

12. Bull Durham. Dir. Ron Shelton. Perf. Kevin Costner, Susan Sarandon and Tim Robbins. Orion Pictures, 1988. DVD.
Track Name: The Bachelor Party, or, Standing Next To
[13]

Cigars and whiskey and poker and bros
late night conversations, smoke in my nose
tonight I keep together, ignore “no place home”
my gut will sober, but my life stays stoned

I feel at least twelve pieces are within my soul
this and that and you and we and all our hopes.
Bros celebrate your “we” to come, and we all know:
“When my cards come together, you will crash at my home.”

In two days we’ll stand with and we will all feel weird
You in joy and us for what? we still don’t know
You’ve forced us to be honest; we can’t bluff or fold:
“My faith can’t move a mountain; I’ve got no wife to show.”

Wedding vows are funny things, they are not your own
Those married think on “what we’ve done” while singles fuss and woe.
“Is it something that I’ve done? Or something I must be?”
In dread, in hope, in fear, in lust, we bet; the Dealer sees

Cigars and whiskey and poker and bros
legal and in moderation, safety: couch and floor
today I keep together, head out to the show.
There’s no time for thinking. It’s logistics. Here we go.

but

under that

today I keep together, ignore “no place home”
my gut will sober, but my life stays stoned

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[lterary bibliography]

13. "Song Structure (popular Music)." Wikipedia, the Free Encyclopedia. Web. 15 Aug. 2011. <http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Song_structure_(popular_music)>.
Track Name: Sex Bob-Omb and the Pursuit of Being Sad and Stuff
[14]

My fire will be eternal: should yours not die out
No matter all this ice between us, or your sense of doubt
this inferno of ours will heal us should it catch
it will nourish me, ressurect you, so breathe long, breath deep
Immortal we will be, laying content upon the pyre
Forever warm, enamored
As our world explodes!
Ok that's all i got im not much of a poet
and this is not much of a poem
but what else am i to do?
as all my advances have been twarted by you
i am reduced to these feeble attempts at free verse

try as I might, you favor me a fool, '
but its hard to bear your heart and soul,
and still be seen as cool,

but i dont care
well not anymore anyway
my shroud is ash, you have set it ablaze
ive got nothing left but me, myself and I
and my hellish intentions
that you fear like the devil incarnate himself

its random screaming time!
and its gonna be awesome!
sonething something and you will see
i dont know what to say anymore
nothing is working at all man
yknow? yeah yeah

i have no direction in my life
i dont know what im doing anymore man
im kinda drunk right now
its kinda like uggh
i dont know what you want anymore
you dont want anything from me obviously
im willing to do anything for you
within reason
ive done soap
what more could you ask of me coz i dunno
remember that time when i came to yr place
and you said you were ok but you were not ok
not ok at all, remember that
i came and i cared and you tell me
i dunno i love you
i love you so much
[incoherent]
yeah
i dunno anymore man
so hiiii-iigh
high...so hiigh
and it is awesome
you should try this
it cures depression
you should try this out coz it cures depression
i does, it really does
i was like really depressed before...
now...im still really depressed
but ive gained an understanding...on life
oh man that was the mic is not really working so well
i dont know why am i recording this
what am i doing
i dunno
i wish you could be a different person
but if you were a different person then
you would be a different person
and you wouldnt be the one i am in love with
it is fabolous
not really tho
and this is...
"i am not on drugs, not on drugs man"
drugs are bad
just say no
drugs are bad and
just say no
why am i rapping in the middle of this song
im not even a good rapper
so kill me
kill my ass
and i will be fine
dont kill yrself coz you wont be fine
no! dont kill your self coz you will be fine
you will be fine. you will be fine. you will be fine
you will be fine. you will be fine. you will be fine
you will be fine
as long as...you have to open up
you will be fine if you open up
id be great if i was with you,
but thats not a priority...right now!
i know thats not a priority right now
i know
just please be ok, just be ok
just please be ok.

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[literary biography]

14. Scott Pilgrim vs. The World. Dir. Edgar Wright. By Bryan L. O'Malley. Perf. Michael Cera, Mary Elizabeth Winstead and Kieran Culkin. Universal, 2010. DVD.
Track Name: Ling-Ling! You...Uh...Excited for Christmas? [...] Oh No! It's a Tumor...
[15]

Disapointment
disappointed all the time
its the risk i take
trying to make
something outta nothing
all you end up with is nothing
i dont know why i try
i dont know why

there is this primal instinct inside
it always takes over
no matter how i try an push it back
this is how the lord made me
and i know wishing for change
will not change me
might as well stew in this cell
till someone comes for me

regret
all the things i've done
for some reason
cant do any good
what is wrong with me
can you tell me
i dont know why i ask
i dont know why

why do i do the things i do?
why does the world looks a certain way?
why do i care about what i care about
why do i need this sung aloud
does anything matter at all?
does this song matter at all?

for its just an expression of

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[literary bibliography]

15. Harrison, Reid. "The Other Cousin." Drawn Together. Dir. Peter Avanzino. Comedy Central. New York City, New York, 1 Dec. 2004. Television.
Track Name: Natalies for Glasses VI (After Six Years, This Is All I've Got to Show For) pt. 1: Hey, I Love You, pt. 2: What Else Is New (Reprise) and pt. 3: In My Dreams, You Wanted Pictures of our Projected Future
[pt. 1: Hey, I Love You]

the say the road to hell
is paved with the best of intentions[16]
makes me wonders

which degree burns am in for
if i continue being who i am

to you the woman i choose to love
unaccepting as you are

arms length you keep me
on the edge of limbo

ready to push
me over
why do you do this?
are you scared?

that i'll inadvertantly
pull you in
take the risk
it'll be worth it

i am not making
anything up when i say do
believe in you

my faith is so strong
dare i say it rivals my faith in
god Himself

for he, created me and you and this circumstance
but still

arms length you keep me
on the edge of limbo

ready to push
me over
why do you do this?
are you scared?

that i'll inadvertantly
pull you in anyway
take the risk
it'll be worth it

just take the risk
it'll be worth it

[pt. 2: What Else Is New (Reprise)]

You are a coal
Burning fire, burning soul
Not black from dirt, but being.
Admit you do, you've still come through.
Yet cessation still sounds freeing.
Gentle assurances from ones you love.
Grant you virility to push forward
Though you may be challenged
Pressure from all sides
You have put up with the torment.
Accept your strength,
Embrace the pressure, break every last confinement.
At your best, you are hard pressed,
but then can you can be a diamond.

pt. 3: In My Dreams, You Wanted Pictures of our Projected Future [A. Ashari]

and so our lives continue
on the whim of our chemistries
will it lead to more doom
or maybe we make it out alive
i hope its the latter
coz no one wants to die broke
of contentment,
but how can we achieve that?

if you dont seize every oppurtunity
to make yourself happy
i should listen to my own advice
apparently that’s what i need right now
but you oh you
i love you and i would give anything
for god knows what now
but ill settle today
to tell you this weird thing
in my dreams you said you wanted pictures
of our projected future
and this is the best i can do

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[literary bibliography]

16. "the road to hell is paved with good intentions", Proverbs, Infobase Publishing, 2007, p. 234, ISBN 9780816066735
Track Name: Natalies for Glasses VI (After Six Years, This Is All I've Got to Show For) pt. 4: And This, Tsubasa, This Is the Best I Can Do Impromptu
(instrumental)