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thirty​-​four minutes with hide and tsubasa

by Shorthand Phonetics

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    "thirty-four minutes with hide and tsubasa" is the fifth full-length concept album by lo-fi indie band Shorthand Phonetics.

    This album explores changes in relationship dynamics within a random 34 minute conversation between two people through the medium of the music and lyrics of these 10 tracks.
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(instrumental)
2.
what's wrong? why hesitate on this? a chance of a lifetime ok im hyperbolizing again but hear me out i know you think that yr just fine why settle there? why settle? when you can have so much more than you limit yr self to be at least you need another set of eyes more objective than yr own on yourself and i can be those sets of eyes observing when yr on the verge of demise oh havent i done enough to win your trust? your trust what do you want from me? what's wrong? why hesitate on this? a chance of a lifetime ok im hyperbolizing again but hear me out i know you think that yr just fine why settle there? why settle? you say you like yr self alone yr anxiety betrays you words i'm not selling a miracle cure just a possibility that you haven't tried what are you afraid of? why cant you be a little bit brave? to be honest i am a little scared this confidence i'm faking it it's totally fake but... with you it can become real or at least that's what i believe i need you to do this fr me probably more than other way around you must be extremely uncomfortable right now im sorry but the heart wants what it wants the heart wants what it wants and its not like yr attracted to some other guy why not take this one and try it out? yr not telling me anything i can use yr not giving me a reason to give up so why should i give up? tell me...
3.
from first sight i knew my heart would fall for you and from then on too you look annoyed we've gone four years past that we know more bout each other do i get points for still wanting you you've got yr problems i've got my problems all of our problems perfectlly fit we're weird anyway wouldn't it be nice to share it with each other my best friend said "love's insanity" i tend to agree i dont wanna be alone im sure you too share my thoughts and mindset oh you don't? oh you don't? from second sight i knew hard this task would be and you certainly tried yr best to make it harder than what any boy can stand but you gravely underestimated me my vigil stance my romantic trance even when im up or down i feel the same way that's gotta count for some thing dont you agree "love's insanity" i tend to agree i dont wanna be alone im sure you too share my thoughts and mindset oh you don't? oh you don't? just tell me why i'm wrong for you and i'll back off really why do you even listen to me why not kick me out if you really don't want me have i been to persistent? too persistant to ignore? oh no i've become that guy well Miyuki said logic goes window when it comes to you now i know what she means now but at least all i want is to please you please appreciate that
4.
countless thoughts i have thought of you all of them involve a bright future where are happy together but isn't likely at all to happen as you definitely established just now Tsubasa, what's wrong with me time and time i try, time and time i try again yr right this has got to stop im trying my best to try to get over you i know that's hard to believe, coz here i am saying i love you but i shouldn't, i shouldn't anymore remind me why this is in vain coz memory slips have i hurt you at all? i've lost my way can't find my way back im in too deep i really need help as you definitely established just now Tsubasa, what's wrong with me time and time i try, time and time i try again yr right this has got to stop im trying my best to try to get over you i know that's hard to believe, coz here i am saying i love you but i shouldn't, i shouldn't anymore coz unrequited love is the lamest love of all release me of this curse anyway you know how release me of this curse anyway God you must know how unrequited... unrequited... Tsubasa, what's wrong with me time and time i try, time and time i try again yr right this has got to stop im trying my best to try to get over you i know that's hard to believe, coz here i am saying i love you but i shouldn't, i shouldn't anymore
5.
yeah...who? why do you always suggest that? dont you know how much it breaks my heart? its an impossibility she deserves better than me oh i didn't mean it like that not that you don't, im not comparing hey, i just implied yr worse than her accidently but still why aren't you offended well you should be all the insulting words of the world and you just take it in what is wrong with you? you're a good-for-nothing idle whiner a bitch hiding under depressed gray cover cmon react come back to me let me have it, rip me a new one ok i know i didnt' mean that but you didn't even react there's must be something inside you that can rise up and fight back so why aren't you offended well you should be all the insulting words of the world and you just take it in what is wrong with you? float like a butterfly sting like a bee i know you have it in you do you believe me? don't answer that. anyway, she's just my best friend never be nothing more i've thought about it at least once and made a huge mistake afterwards a mistake i regret but that's in the past now now all i got is you which is a kin to sayin' all i got is nothing see what i did there? i just insulted you again why won't you hate me? why do i demand extremes? why aren't you offended well you should be all the insulting words of the world and you just take it in what the hell is wrong with you?
6.
i've imagined this a million times before imagine i will no more you sit there vulnerable coughing secrets a prey if there ever was one but i wasnt compelled to move i was content to watch watch you there talk all night i want you to know yr safe with me listening to you yr words like music to my ears depression and suicide seem like light topics easy to laugh off when im with you everything just seems right right with the world and mind when we were clicking and i don't wanna ruin the moment i was content to watch watch you there talk all night i want you to know yr safe with me listening to you yr words like music to my ears is there really nothing here? nothing to build on at all? nothing to potentially grow to something bigger something better what do you see when you see us together? cause i see something great, something great something epic, epic if you claim otherwise then i'd have to fight you but i really dont want to but my gut tells me to what is this feeling and why does it exist does not compute does not compute this can't be love love has to go both ways or does it? if not than this is cruel why would god let this happen to me? this is cruel the cruelest thing imaginable
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if yr thinking to yourself "why is he attracted to me" well that means we're thinking the exact same thing save the pronouns this has been tiresome and depressing at least for you, yr the one recieving all the love and attention sorry if you can't see the silver lining in all this mess of an attempt to start up something i had faith in sorry if you can't see the good that this'll be for you im sorry i ever tried if yr thinking to yourself "how to make him not love me" well that means we're thinking the exact same thing save the pronouns this has been tiresome and depressing at least for me...nothing there's nothing good i can think of don't be sorry if I can't see the silver lining in all this mess of an attempt to start up something i still have faith in, somehow sorry if you can't see the good that this'll be for you im sorry i ever tried im sorry i just wanna be with you my mind is supposed know better than this but my heart's is overriding everything what i feel now is a mish-mash of emotion uneasily discerned i wish i can just turn it off i wish i can just turn it off reset my mind reset my heart start over a new but it's impossible improbable impossible implausible impossible improbable impossible implausible coz i dont wanna wanna give up just yet i know i'm being stupid as hell but i dont got nothing to hold on to nothing to live for that's ive discovered myself and that's you babe that's you babe that is you... is you...
8.
Neuroses 03:54
I'm fucking crazy but somehow i normalize around you you somehow sound saner too when yr talking me out things do you not realize this improvement when we are together always we move forward and shed our pathologies and be better and isn't that what we wanted all along? you know i'm right so why wont you give this a shot you never know until you try and you've got nothing to lose do you not realize the potential when we are together always we move forward and shed our pathologies and be better and isn't that what we wanted all along? cmon cmon cmon cmon why dont you just say yes to this we wont be normal but we were we ever? so just say yes say yes to this we could be normal who knows? you never know until you try you never know until you try oh yes, oh yes what have you got to lose? nothing at all so just say yes yes to oppurtunities of self-growth and companionship always, say yes always, always... always we move forwards hopefully and shed our pathologies and be better and isn't that what we wanted all along? isn't that what we wanted all along? isn't that what we wanted all along? isn't that what we wanted all along?
9.
Ok i failed again but i kinda saw this coming momentum wasn't there but i pushed it so whats this the eighth time now? i've confessed to you this love of mine admittedly it's kinda of a joke at this point but this joke consumes me dearly so my being's tied to the coming punchline and i just know the whole bit's gonna end up on me i dont care anymore i'll throw it until it sticks or at least until my throwing arm gives out the ninths time the charm right time, the charm right there i go, my humor defense strikes again, no wonder im such a joke but this joke consumes me dearly so my being's tied to the coming punchline and i just know the whole bit's gonna end up on me this is pathetic at best your eyes give it away to me so why wont you give me more more of i don't know exactly what what do you mean by "you deserve better" do you really believe there's someone out there for me that i'll love better and be loved in return? you really do believe that don't you? yr not just saying that? well maybe i should believe you i have no choice anyway you've been great my planes about to leave i got one more thing to say to you... and here it is...
10.
you, why do you look depressed? this should be a win for you for i am finally doing what you wanted me to this is a decision you made on your own now that you've made it you gotta live with it oh yr just down in general like usual yknow this is the sort of thing i can help you with if you'd excepted me but nevermind i'll still help you now with what little time i got in this country why am i leaving anyway? am i running away? oh sorry, we we're talking about you so you have doubt's about yr self on whether you can be a clinician so hear me when i say, yr gonna be a damn good one as long as you stick by yr friends Miyuki's good for a hug Hyuga's gotta sharp mind oh yr gonna be fine without me of course you are you never needed me but you need friends, just learn to trust and they'll trust you not every one's out to get you just be open with yourself and dont discount your own ambition and you'll be great you'll be great you'll be great why do you insist on being alone? being alone's overrated i would know, and now you know why i was so desperate for you why i did the stupid things i did cause... i really thought you were the one the one to be with me forever but you made me realize that's maybe not true thank you (i guess) i'll still hold out a candle for you if circumstances permit but that's the thing about time "You can regret the past and you can be depressed about the present; But you don't know anything about the future and fuck! [...] That's exciting." you can happy with me and i can be happy with out you time hasnt run its course for us and anything can happen but if you ask me who i love currently take this with a grain of salt take this with a grain of salt take this with a grain of salt it's still you it's still you. take this with a grain of salt and i bid you... goodbye.

about

"thirty-four minutes with hide and tsubasa" is a thirty-four minute concept album that is a representation of Hide and Tsubasa's last conversation just about Hide's plane is about to leave for a foreign land. The music represents the conversation while the lyrics represent Hide's thoughts. This album follows the same continuity as all past Shorthand Phonetics albums which also deal with Hide's experiences being a med school student in Japan.

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released August 10, 2010

Copyleft 2010 Yes No Wave Music and Tsefula/Tsefuelha Records
Shorthand Phonetics is Ababil Ashari (vox, guitar, bass, programming)
All tracks by A. Ashari except track 1 by A. Ashari / V. L. Hidajat
Cover art “Hide and Tsubasa” by Felkiza Vinanda
"Relationship: A Picture Book for Young Adults"
by Felkiza Vinanda and Ababil Ashari
Produced, mixed and mastered by A. Ashari Recorded at The Yellow House (Rumah Kuning), Kampung Geulis, Jatinangor, Jawa Barat, Indonesia to a 2007 Hewlett-Packard Presario V3500 through a Labtec webcam mic in fourth week of June 2010
Guitar and bass amplification provided by Pascal Christian
Guitar and bass refurbishing by Sigit of Planet Musik, Jakarta, Indonesia
Dedicated to Tsubasa, Miyuki and Hyuga
www.yesnowave.com,
www.shorthandphonetics.co.cc,
www.myspace.com/shorthandphonetics,
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